There isn't any cure, besides just stopping. And how many of them can do that? They don't want to, you see. When they feel bad like this fellow here, they think they want to stop, but they don't, really.
Some of them were close and some were blow outs and in every game I feel like I just couldn't do enough. Not enough saves, too many mistakes and not finding a way to elevate my teams to win by giving an inspiring performance by their goaltender.
I know what my goalie coach will say. I know what most of my team mates will say. "You did your best." "We let you down man." "Thanks for showing up." "You made some good stops." None of those welcomed and best intentioned comments change my mood.
What's the cure for the irrational competitiveness? What's the cure for wanting to put myself in a position of constant and glaring failure. What's the cure for wanting to be a goaltender?
There isn't any cure, besides just stopping.
I'm not stopping.